I am only 4dpo. I know I am pregnant. Scratch that. I know there is a better chance of me being completely loony than actually knowing I am pregnant right now. But still...I just know.
I know there have to be more of y'all out there that are completely neurotic like me that analyze and over-analyze everything until you feel like you are mad. Every time my body does ANYTHING I have Google up and BBC up and I am trying to figure out if it means what I hope it means.
The logical side of me knows that what I am feeling is progesterone and I am just not used to it because I was on birth control so long that I forgot what the post-ovulatory part of my cycle feels like. But the crazy neurotic side is driving me mad. What do the rest of y'all do to overcome this feeling of craziness...I know that if I keep it up and AF does come I will be in a world of hurt.
I guess this is just hard because I have been married four years and have wanted a child even longer than that and we have finally decided that it is time. I just want it to happen now.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
My Boss
My boss is being so weird. I haven't told him or anyone at my work that we are TTC, but he has mentioned us being pregnant several times. One time I said I was hot & he said "you must be ovulating". I kind of laughed it off. Then today he brought in a gallon jar of pickles & said "I brought these in for you in case you turn up pregnant or something, because I know thats why you went home early yesterday" I don't get it! He & his wife TTCed for years and maybe he is just keen on that vibe or something...or he is going through my stuff. I am not sure which. He is not upset or anything, and I think, for some reason, that he wants us to have a kid. I sure want it, but it is just strange for him to. I don't know, but hopefully it is a sign!
Holy O Batman!
Welp, pretty sure I O'ed! .9 degree spike! See previous post for link, but seriously! It is gorgeous! Bd'ed everyday before & up until O so we def did everything right! So now I am 1DPO and in the dreaded 2ww. Yuk!
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Temperature Dip
My temperature showed a dip today! And a good one too! Down to 97.1 degrees. I read online that women that see that dip are fortunate because it makes timing even easier! I read at one.site that the dip is on the day of ovulation and then the rise is the day after. Either way I'm not sure but we are going to BD until the day AFTER the shift! I am feeling good about this month!
Friday, January 7, 2011
EWCM
So I def. had EWCM for the first time (first time I noticed anyway) today! I am so stinkin excited because it means that I will probably ovulate on time this month & we are totally geared up for it!
My Chart
I know this is totally weird, but I am kind of proud of my body right now. My temperature has been completely normal which gives me all kind of hope that when I "O" I will know! Feel free to stalk my chart!
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/mycharlestonbabyblog
Last night was nice. I took a nice long bath while my husband watched a show I don't like. After the bath it was bed time but we had some apple crumb cake in the fridge. I put that in the microwave and went into the bedroom for a minute. As soon as my hubby came in I could tell he wanted to BD. It was so spur of the moment because lately we have been BDing so much that he doesn't even ask anymore, knowing that it is coming! All during he kept saying how easily he was sliding in and how nice it was. I didn't want to kill the mood so I told him afterwards that it was so nice because I was "probably fertile" and had fertile CM! My fertile days weren't supposed to start until today, but I guess I was somewhat last night! It was just so nice to BD on a day unplanned by me!
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/mycharlestonbabyblog
Last night was nice. I took a nice long bath while my husband watched a show I don't like. After the bath it was bed time but we had some apple crumb cake in the fridge. I put that in the microwave and went into the bedroom for a minute. As soon as my hubby came in I could tell he wanted to BD. It was so spur of the moment because lately we have been BDing so much that he doesn't even ask anymore, knowing that it is coming! All during he kept saying how easily he was sliding in and how nice it was. I didn't want to kill the mood so I told him afterwards that it was so nice because I was "probably fertile" and had fertile CM! My fertile days weren't supposed to start until today, but I guess I was somewhat last night! It was just so nice to BD on a day unplanned by me!
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
CD9
I know it has been a while since my last post, but that is because I am kind of in a period of time where nothing is happening. Don't get me wrong, you kind of need this time after the stress & anxiety of the 2ww, but there just isn't much to post about. DH & I are trying to BD every 3 days, even though we know there isn't much of a chance right now. Starting Friday (maybe Thursday if I'm feeling frisky :)) we will be BDing every day!
I have high hopes about this cycle. I started taking my BBT day 1 of this cycle, and so far it hasn't varied much, staying around 97.5. Honestly, it is just one more thing to read too far into and obsess about, but it will make the 2ww this time more interesting at least!
We aren't really telling anyone that we are trying to get pregnant yet because we don't want everyone asking every month if we are yet. DH told me though, that I didn't have to lie about it. The first fertile weekend we went to see my best friend in NC and we were at a bar but I wasn't drinking. She asked if we were trying to get pregnant. So then she knew. Another friend wanted me to go visit her in MD while I was on Christmas break from work. I told her I wasn't sure because Jon & I were working on something. She then asked if we were trying to get pregnant. She she knows. And then we were at a party for New Years and I was talking to my friends mom (who is like a mother / friend to me) and I just told her! Aack! I felt so guilty afterwards, but I really just want to scream it from the rooftops!
We were going to travel to AZ in April to see my brother, his wife and their two children, but after doing the math it ended up that it was going to cost us $1,800. DH & I made the decision (after lots of tears on my end) to not go. It just doesn't make sense to spend that kind of money while we are trying to have a child! That is a month that I don't have to work. It is the entire bedroom set & probably everything else we need too. I had intended that we would use our tax return to pay for part of the trip but that would be better served for baby too. It was hard, but I had to send out an email to my brother that with everything going on (didn't mention trying to have a baby but did mention that they were in the future) we wouldn't be able to go. We are trying to find ways to make the trip cheaper and if we can get it down to about $1,000 (which I think is impossible) then we will still go. I really want to see my niece & nephew. 2 & 3! I love them!
That is really all that is going on in our lives right now though! Soon it will be baby making & 2ww time & that will be more exciting, but for now we just wait!
I have high hopes about this cycle. I started taking my BBT day 1 of this cycle, and so far it hasn't varied much, staying around 97.5. Honestly, it is just one more thing to read too far into and obsess about, but it will make the 2ww this time more interesting at least!
We aren't really telling anyone that we are trying to get pregnant yet because we don't want everyone asking every month if we are yet. DH told me though, that I didn't have to lie about it. The first fertile weekend we went to see my best friend in NC and we were at a bar but I wasn't drinking. She asked if we were trying to get pregnant. So then she knew. Another friend wanted me to go visit her in MD while I was on Christmas break from work. I told her I wasn't sure because Jon & I were working on something. She then asked if we were trying to get pregnant. She she knows. And then we were at a party for New Years and I was talking to my friends mom (who is like a mother / friend to me) and I just told her! Aack! I felt so guilty afterwards, but I really just want to scream it from the rooftops!
We were going to travel to AZ in April to see my brother, his wife and their two children, but after doing the math it ended up that it was going to cost us $1,800. DH & I made the decision (after lots of tears on my end) to not go. It just doesn't make sense to spend that kind of money while we are trying to have a child! That is a month that I don't have to work. It is the entire bedroom set & probably everything else we need too. I had intended that we would use our tax return to pay for part of the trip but that would be better served for baby too. It was hard, but I had to send out an email to my brother that with everything going on (didn't mention trying to have a baby but did mention that they were in the future) we wouldn't be able to go. We are trying to find ways to make the trip cheaper and if we can get it down to about $1,000 (which I think is impossible) then we will still go. I really want to see my niece & nephew. 2 & 3! I love them!
That is really all that is going on in our lives right now though! Soon it will be baby making & 2ww time & that will be more exciting, but for now we just wait!
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